Attended my month Engels meeting and I must say that I found a pocket of Memphis that I had not explored, I mean aside from the occasional run in with the Memphis hippies I've never really been in close contact with them.
The night started out all right, with the Engels meeting I found a member there that was obnoxious, but the redeeming quality was that she was there. I said to myself, at least she is trying to understand even though she gets in the way of herself it is not really her fault that she cannot listen to other people, she is searching just like we are searching although she did very little listening. The main thing is that she is here.
Then Engels meeting went well. I found that my studies are great but I need to be able to connect with the group. One of the points of rupture is that I've not read the polemics that are widely read like Trotsky or the like so I'm coming from a theoretical understanding of economy and they are coming from communist polemics and while we are a compliment I find that their eyes gloss over. I find that I need to ask more questions because they will be more willing to share their understanding and they will listen to me when I tell them that it not only has superficial reasons but also hard economic laws that reign along with the polemics, they are like a mirror that reflect surface but one cannot know the underlying reasons just from observation.
I'm doing everything on the internet now. I've even been writing on line now. It's going to take me a little to get used to this although I think that it will make me a faster typer. So I meet this guy at this Engels meeting I don't think that he's gay but I think that I like him as a friend or I'd like to explore the possibility of becoming friends. I don't know I think this is the first time that I've meet a person that it into Engels as much as I am. Who knows well It was fun need to talk to him more.
As I talk to more and more people I find that I have the willingness to study psychology more and more. I find that I can rise to the challenge of studying and even become a good one.
MMM...waffles!
The night started out all right, with the Engels meeting I found a member there that was obnoxious, but the redeeming quality was that she was there. I said to myself, at least she is trying to understand even though she gets in the way of herself it is not really her fault that she cannot listen to other people, she is searching just like we are searching although she did very little listening. The main thing is that she is here.
Then Engels meeting went well. I found that my studies are great but I need to be able to connect with the group. One of the points of rupture is that I've not read the polemics that are widely read like Trotsky or the like so I'm coming from a theoretical understanding of economy and they are coming from communist polemics and while we are a compliment I find that their eyes gloss over. I find that I need to ask more questions because they will be more willing to share their understanding and they will listen to me when I tell them that it not only has superficial reasons but also hard economic laws that reign along with the polemics, they are like a mirror that reflect surface but one cannot know the underlying reasons just from observation.
I'm doing everything on the internet now. I've even been writing on line now. It's going to take me a little to get used to this although I think that it will make me a faster typer. So I meet this guy at this Engels meeting I don't think that he's gay but I think that I like him as a friend or I'd like to explore the possibility of becoming friends. I don't know I think this is the first time that I've meet a person that it into Engels as much as I am. Who knows well It was fun need to talk to him more.
As I talk to more and more people I find that I have the willingness to study psychology more and more. I find that I can rise to the challenge of studying and even become a good one.
MMM...waffles!
No comments:
Post a Comment